I look at this blog and I cannot believe that it has been almost 6 years since I’ve posted anything. Then I really think back at that time and I realize that I lost myself for a number of those years. I went down into a dark place and closed off myself. I couldn’t hear my own inner voice, let alone anything God had to say for or through me. When I finally called out to our Lord and He picked me up out of that miry clay, I had to work my way back. I had to rediscover His love and His forgiveness. Most of all, I had to forgive myself for allowing this world to firstly, beat me so down that I was weary doing good. Secondly for deciding in the secret places of my heart that I didn’t want to anymore. The past year or 2, I have felt like I was back to a place of trusting God and praying with my whole heart. I realize now that I needed to be, because I would have to fight for my husband. (That’s a whole other story that will have to be a different post.) I am writing this short post to just say that I am back. I want to write. I want to proclaim God’s Word. Even if the only audience is my family or even just for me to get that fire out that is pent up in my bones. I never ever want to quench the Spirit that is living in me ever again. I want His love and anointing to pour out of me in any way that He sees fit. This is my moment. I have felt the wave growing for a while now and I’m ready to ride it wherever it may lead. So here is my declaration:
Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?”
And I said, “Here am I. Send me!” Isaiah 6:8
Grizzly Eve Domestic Goddess 